June 27 was my youngest sons birthday. He turned five years old. We held his party on Saturday the 28. There were not a lot of people and unfortunately none of his classmates showed up (his girlfriend was in a wedding) however it was fun none the less. I gave him a Nintendo DS and my sister gave him the Mario lunch box carrying case as well as the Sonic Rush game.

The lunch box carrying case included a case to hold the DS, two blue rubber game cartridge carriers, 3 extra stylus pens (very handy for small children who lose them all the time), a set of clip on headphones so we don’t all have to hear the music when he plays, and a car charger for the DS. This was an awesome gift most especially because the DS I gave him was not brand new and did not come with a house charger.

My father and my ex both chipped in to buy him this very large and inflatable bouncy bounce. Its a very cool toy similar to a trampoline only that its bounce comes from the fact its kelp inflated by a constant running air pump. You can see a picture of what I am talking about by clicking here

What other news do I have. Well my ex screwed up big time and finally gave my parents the reason they needed to tell her to get off their property. See my parents brought my kids out to me for a weekend visit this past weekend. My father pulled me aside and told me he had something very serious he needed to talk to me about and he needed me to be 100% honest with him. He asked me if I had taken any pills from their house.

Okay so he wanted total honesty, so I told him I’d taken some crap like Advil and such when I get a headache or a toothache but other then that I never had and never would. Well apparently someone had taken 80 of my mothers lortabs. My ex was quick to try to accuse me but no one at all believed her. I have never been into pills and never been into selling drugs (except a bag of marijuana to a friend when they need help). So my parents ACTUALLY had a talk with her and gave her until the end of this month to get out of their backyard.

On to better more pleasing topics, my kids and I had a great time this past weekend. We went to the pool couple times and we went to the creek once. At the creek we got to use their inflatable alligator for the first time in over a year of them owning it. It made it so both my boys were a LOT less scared. At the pool, there was no fear at all. Both of them loved it. The could slowly walking in and only had to go as far as they felt comfortable doing.

At one point my youngest scared the living heck right out of me. I looked around and he had just vanished. Panic stuck me some kind of fierce. I started yelling for him and grabbed his brother and was getting out of the pool to go search for him when he came out of the bathroom. I told him very firmly that if he ever has to get out of the pool again, he tells me first or I warned him we would not go back.

I also had to have this very long talk with my oldest son. Apparently my father likes to try to unteach the things I teach my children. So my oldest son came to me and told me he doesn’t believe me, he agrees with his grandpa that one has to have money to live. Well I showed him that the truth is money just clouds our life and distorts the truths of what we need. We need food, we need water, we need shelter, we need clothing, we need family, we need friends, we need love, and each and every one of these things can be obtained without money.

I proved it to him. How? I showed him how I take care of all my needs. I showed him how I have a place to live and food on my table, how I have clothes, and how my life is filled with friends and loved ones. I showed him how I do all of these things without money. I showed him that if we follow Gods law and love our neighbors as ourselves, then no money is required. We will help those in need, and in return those in need will help us.

I taught him exactly what the bible tells us the 99% of the world seems to have forgotten. Its ironically funny just how easily todays world can be compared to nations long past.

Give to Caesar that which is Caesars and give to God that which is Gods

Just as it was determined that money with the face of Caesar on it must be Caesars, for it had his face so true must be the money of modern times. The face of America is on all American money. It doesn’t belong to God, its not part of Gods plan, and it won’t help you at all with the important aspects of this life. Being wealthy with money, will not get you to the kingdom of heaven. It will only serve to pollute and corrupt the ways of God. So again let it be said:

Give to Caesar that which is Caesars and give to God that which is Gods

Well its been a while sense my last update and I appologize about that. I’ve had a lot going on in life and finally am able to get back to blogging. So what has happened sense I last updated? Well as I mentioned last update, my youngest son turns 5 on friday and we are having a party on Saturday. There will be somewhere between 8 and 10 kids. Also my sons school girlfriend named Zoey will be there, which I am psyched about because I havn’t yet met her!

Oh I know what else I need to say. For some reason my parents decided they are not taking the random phone call they got about being reported to child protective services so they decided that my ex can still stay in the tent in the backyard. What the fsck is wrong with people. I am not even sure how to handle this. Perhaps I need to get a case worker for myself. *sighs* I really think the world has gone into stupid mode.

Okay one final thing I want to mention. My sister and I decided on a seconds notice to randomly go out and visit our parents and my kids. If you recall from my prior posts, my parents think I should give them notice before I show up (which isn’t going to happen as I also stated). Anyways so we show up and the babysitter is waiting at the end of the driveway to pick my oldest son up from school. I tell her that she can go home and I will take my kids for the rest of the day. You want to know what she tells me? No!

Excuse me? Whose kids are these? Okay no biggie the babysitter is doing what she thinks is right, so I will just wait until my parents get home to deal with this. When my parents get home I instantly bring the subject up. Guess what my father says? Oh she did exactly what she was supposed to! Again I say…. Excuse me? So I go to my mother and I tell her exactly this… “you can think what ever you want about this situation but I assure you if it had been 90 degree’s outside today and I came to take the kids swimming, there would have been a huge problem because there is no chance in the world someone is going to tell me I can’t take my kids when I want”. My mother agreed with me and went and spoke to the babysitter about it.

Later both my parents come back to me and again tell me she did the right thing because I need to announce a few days in advance before stopping in. How the fsck is anyone going to tell me I have to give notice but its okay for my sister to just randomly stop? So next time I am suppose to tell my sister no, I can’t go with you to mom and dads because I have to leave notice? Bullc##p! Thats NOT EVER going to happen.

However I tell you if this bullshit doesn’t stop, I will get myself my own case worker. I don’t want to drag my kids out of what I consider to be the best school district in the state, however if it comes down to it, I will if I have to.

Okay so my next update will likely not be until after the weekend (perhaps after the Fourth of July).

I never really did report what I did with the kids this past weekend. Honestly thats because there wasn’t a whole lot to report. They got here late in the evening on Friday. We went swimming for a little while when the first got here. After that we came back and had dinner. We had some leftover spaghtti with sause and a bunch of parm. cheese mixed with it. The kids loved it. In fact they asked for the same thing Saturday night for dinner.

We watched some nascar racing after dinner. I believe Kyle Busch won Friday, and came in second on sunday. He lost on Saturday. Tony Stewert who is my sons favorite, didn’t have a great weekend. We did however get to watch him on the DirecTv with the hotpass. That was fairly cool. I also found out that nascar won’t allow me to link to any of their murchandice. Aparently this website isn’t “nascar” enough! Total crap if you ask me, but I suppose their rules are their rules!

Okay so saturday, we did a little bit of bike riding but being how the weather was so incredibly hot, most of the day we spent swimming. In fact we had a 4 day heatwave (temp. over 90 F). Some of those days were breaking into the 100’s. So thats basically what we did all weekend, a lot of swimming. The water was wonderful.

The boys loved it but were a bit afraid also. Basically as you entered the water, it went from ankle level water to waiste high level water (or ankle to neck in the case of my kids) in one step. So they didn’t want to get in much past their ankles. None the less they enjoyed it. They also don’t yet know how to swim but they are in a program over the summer that will hopefully help them learn.

Now much else to really report. The kids were good as always and everything went without incodent. So I suppose I will write more when I have more to write :o)

I talked to my mother Friday night and heard some awesome news. Some very kind gentleman decided to take it upon himself to get my ex, her boyfriend, and their tent off my parents backlawn. Who? Know one has any idea. It came in as a random phone call. Here’s what happened.

Some guy called up to my parents house, apparently he must have blocked his number before calling because my parents have caller id. Anyways, when my dad answered this guy told my dad that if my parents didn’t get her off the backlawn, he was going to call child protective services on them! :o)

So my mother tells me they have no choice but to talk to my ex and tell her she has to go. That couldn’t be more amazing! I really wonder if this website had anything to do with it. Or perhaps it was just a entirely made up story for my parents to have an excuse. I really don’t know but I don’t care either. I am just glad its happening.

On another note, my youngest son turns 5 on the 27th of this month. The next day, Saturday, will be the party. My parents both said they no that I will be coming up on Friday, so I don’t know what to think about whether I need to find a place to stay or not while I am there. I guess I’ll just have to wing it. So, I know he is only 5 but he really loves video games. He currently has a leapster, an internet launch pad, a smart cycle, and a whole bunch of educational style video games. Well this time I got him the non-educational kind and got him a nintendo DS.

He has been asking me for months and months so I finally got it. I figure he’ll have to share it with his brother but none the less it will be his. I also got him the pokemon game with it (and of course I have been playing it myself until it comes time to give it to him *WEG*). I have had it for a few months so I have had plenty of practice with it.

So am I the only one who plays with my kids toys before giving them as gifts?

If you skip over reading the products in this posting, at least read the last paragraph!

Well fathers day is only a few days off. Its on June 15 for those who don’t know (September 7 for Au and Nz residents). One of the complaints I hear every year is about both women and children not knowing what to get their fathers. Sadly most people just ignore this holiday because of it. Mothers day is a huge event, but fathers day gets lost for most people. Well it shouldn’t!

Fathers are just as much an important part of a child’s life as the mother is. Granted guys aren’t as easy to shop for as women are. We generally don’t want someone to go out and pick us a bunch of flowers. Its just not our thing. Well what is our thing? Well one thing I find guys don’t get enough of in life is cologne! I don’t know if women just don’t know what types of cologne to buy, or what the case is.

What I do know is that its not just girls who like to smell nice! In fact, I hate the smell of deodorant. Its just not appeasing to me. So after my deodorant I put on cologne. Its something I know a bit about as well. Actually I know a lot about fashion even though I am not “trendy” or “fashionable” in my attire.

So first let me tell you about the amazing and wonderful fragrance known as 212 for men. It was a fragrance introduced in 1999 by Carolina Herrera. Its fragrance smells like a combination of mandarin, grapefruit, iron woods, and sandalwood. It is recommended for daytime use, not evenings and is given a classification of being oriental/spicy. It has a scent life of 6 to 10 hours and a moderate scent strength.

One reviewer left the following review:
I’d been trying various perfumes all my life,to get the perfect one for the Indian Sun,and struck gold with 212. A very good Masculine scent that lingers on till the next day. Trust me !!! you will never go wrong with 212,buy it with confidence,
Written by Palanichamy,India

Another amazing cologne is called Acqua Di Selva. This is an amazing fragrance introduced in 1949 by Visconti Di Modrone. Its scent is a mixture of oakmoss, citrus and forest flavors. Unlike the last cologne this is recommended for evening and night wearing. It is a casual scent who classification is woods. Its scent life is anywhere from 1 to 5 hours.

One reviewer left the following review:
I just love Acqua di Selva cologne. for over 20 years, there is no other scent that can top this! When I walk pass women, I can hear them say, “He smells sexy” or “what is that smell” (in a good way)I will always have this in my Cologne cabinet! Carl
Written by Carl Glenn

The final cologne I want to talk about is a name that is definitely known and trusted by women, but not many know of its existence for men. The Cologne I am referring to is Allure Sport. This cologne was created in 2004 by the famous Chanel. Its scent is said to be a large combination of Atlas Cedar, Aldehydes, Orange, White musks, Aquatic Note, Madagascar Black pep, Mandarin orange, Vetiver, Tonka bean, Amber, and Ne. Its classification is citrus/fruity and it is recommended for casual use. Its strength is moderate and it has a 6 to 10 hour lifespan.

One reviewer left the following review:
I’m asked what is that cologne your wearing every where I go and I’m complimented on it every time its great casual fragrance that lasts “GREAT STUFF”
Written by ANTHONY T OF PORT ANGELES

You can also find more colognes under my “links for parents”. I strongly recommend that if your kids have a father figure in their life, that you do something for fathers day. I know that personally I will not get anything except some people online wishing me a happy fathers day. It makes me sad each and every year. Honestly make someones fathers day a fathers day to remember. I assure you they will appreciate it!

Well I didn’t get around to calling last night until about 6:30 at night. I actually put it off figuring no one would be at the house until then. Well guess what? The kids are coming today!! YAY!! *does a happy dance* Hopefully they just remember to bring their bikes!

Okay now its time for some honesty. My past decided to rear its ungly head and get me in trouble last night. You see, I admit I am only human and I have made some very s*itty mistakes in my life. Two of these mistakes I have repeated over and over again so many times that its sick really. What are they? First is the fact I have been known to lie.

Now let me tell you, my friends have never considered me a liar. In fact I try VERY hard not to lie to them. I really don’t see the need to lie. Be a man about things and own up to what you have done and admit your mistakes. However with my family, I can’t say I use this advice. I do lie to them, and rather often. Why? Because I don’t like hearing all the BS that comes with telling them the truth. I get sick of hearing there judgements of my life, and sometimes it just avoids a huge confrontation. Other times I am truly ashamed at things I have done and would rather not own up to them, especially to my family. *sighs* I can only imagine what you are thinking at this point!

Now the second of the mistakes I am referring to is stealing *sighs* What do I even say about this. I have been known in my past to steal. Only from my family, specifically speaking my parents but none the less it is something that has reoccurred time and time again. Just like with the first topic, my friends would tell you I am of the utmost trusting person and in fact frequently get left alone in various friends houses and never take anything.

However this is not the case with my parents. I have been known to take small ammounts of cash (a twenty hear or there). There have also been one or two occations when I took much larger sums of money (like hundreds). I do try hard to keep myself in check and not steal but sometimes its hard. Its one of my biggest reoccuring sins.

So I suppose it comes as no surprize that if something turns up missing the instant reaction is not “well maybe I misplaced it”, instead its “Bruce was arround he probably took it”. Well its one of those type things that happened last night. Apparently my mother had $300 put away in her room (which is deadbolt locked) and it turned up missing. Sense I was there just over a week ago, its blamed on me. When I asked how I could have, I was told “I don’t know but you have your ways”.

Now they are telling me they don’t want me to stay at their house when I come to visit anymore. I suppose that will be managable but man what a pain in the ass its going to be. I will probably end up camping outside (off the property where the kids WON’T see me) for the weekends I go out there. What I really need to do is start getting things organized in my life so I can get an appartment and have my kids live with me full time. That will certainly end the problems of me being accused of things because with my history, it doesn’t matter if I did them or not I am to blame and the fact I have lied, means I am automatically lying.

Its one of those things where I made my own bed and now I have to lay in it, its just tough sometimes. I wish I could fix all the mistakes I have made in my past. Anyways… I really need to get my spirits lifted up because the kids will be here in just a few hours!

More updates coming soon!

So many things are going wrong right now I can’t even begin to explain. For starters my main website is not longer online, or more correctly the domain name expired. On top of that paypal changed the rules sense I last used them and you can no longer send money out without a verified account. I don’t have a bank account or credit card to verify my account, and this leaves me without the $9.00 required to renew my domain name! Thats part one.

So this dumb s**t where I live decides to call my roommates and tries telling them that the reason I don’t live with my kids is because I am a pedophile. OMG!! Now luckily my roommates are smarter then that and they realize if that was true I wouldn’t be allowed to have my kids for visits or anything. However..

I went out with a friend last night (someone I really don’t know well just recently started hanging with him) and I told him about the conversation. He says to me “well you kind of do seem a little weird you gotta expect some people are going to think that”. WHAT?? IAM TOTALLY FREAKING OUT. What does he mean I should expect that? Are you nuts? We just expect some people are pedophiles now because of how they act? Where does anyone get off using that logic? Where does anyone get off saying I act like a pedophile? What the fuck does a pedophile act like? *deep breath*

Okay and lets finish this up with, my kids are supposed to be coming tomorrow right? Well my father tells me everytime I come to visit, I will know when they are coming he will give me a call a couple days in advance. Well I havn’t received any calls! Does this mean he isn’t bringing them? I will totally bug out on someone if they don’t bring my kids this weekend. They will find me sitting on their doorstep sometime next week I almost garauntee!

I could keep yapping but what would be the point, they would just be more bitches and complaints about how my life is currently going. So much going on and so many stresses and I don’t know what to do about it all. At the moment I need to focus though…. call my folks and find out whats going on with the kids…

At what age do you first tell your children about sex and bad people? When do you tell them about “good touch bad touch”? What exactly do you say? Well I can tell you this, both my kids go to school. One goes to pre-k and the other is in first grade. Being how they both go to school, they have both been taught. Even if that wasn’t the case, if they get left with a baby sitter, they would be taught! From the time your child is old enough to understand, if they are being left with someone other then the parents, they should be taught. This is a simple reality.

With my kids, I flat out told them in front of other adults “If anyone ever touches you in your private area, you tell me, or mommy, or grandpa, or grandma, or all of us. If one of us ever touches you like that, you tell a different person.” There are no exceptions to this rule. I don’t tell them its okay for a doctor, because frankly I’d rather my child tell me and me decide if its okay. Especially at the ages they are now.

They have also been taught that playing house and/or doctor is wrong. Its wrong to do with a neighbor girl, and its DEFINITELY wrong to do with each other. I have also told them (and I am sure this may piss off a lot of readers) that touching another boy is not just wrong but God tells us not too. I tell them they should never touch another boy and they should never let another boy touch them. I also have told them they should never touch each other.

This is just basic information to me. This is the things my children at the young ages they are should hear these things. Its not getting into huge detail, its just teaching them right from wrong and how to handle the wrong situations.

I want to stress I am a firm believer in christianity and whereas I don’t judge anyone for there particular beliefs or sexual preferences, I also don’t condone it. I tell many of my friends who are bisexual I think that what they do is wrong, but its not my choice to make and I am not the one who has to answer to it. I can’t judge them as I don’t know the detailed thoughts in their brain, but what I can do is teach people that it is wrong according to the laws that God delivered to man.

So go ahead and feed me your thought on these topics.

Also my kids are supposed to be coming to see me this weekend which will be awesome! So I am excited as always. And this time they should have their bikes!! Hopefully over the weekend I will have my oldest riding!! Wish me luck!!!!!

Well its a bit overdue but I figured its time I update you on what happened while I was visiting my kids last week.

I could start by saying my oldest (he’s 6 years old, almost 7, for those who don’t know) doesn’t yet know how to ride a bike. Technically thats not correct though. He has a bike thats way to small for him that he has no problem riding. The problem is the bike that is his size (actually just a TOUCH to big for him). He still has a problem getting enough speed with to stay balanced and upright. So while I was there we worked on that for a bit. I also told him the next time he comes to my house to bring the bike cause I have more pavement for him to learn on (the house where he lives has nothing but a dirt driveway).

I also tried teaching both my kids the baby bumble bee song but couldn’t remember it all for the life of me. So now I looked it up and its posted below so I won’t forget!

I’m bringing home a baby bumblebee
Won’t my mommy be so proud of me
I’m bringing home a baby bumblebee
Won’t my mommy be so proud of me

Ouch! It stung me!

I’m squishing up the baby bumblebee
Won’t my mommy be so proud of me
I’m squishing up the baby bumblebee
Won’t my mommy be so proud of me
Ooh! It’s yucky!

I’m wiping off the baby bumblebee
Won’t my mommy be so proud of me
I’m wiping off the baby bumblebee
Now my mommy won’t be mad at me

I taught them the rules of hopscotch and told them to bring chalk next time the come to visit me also. We can draw a hopscotch board on the sidewalk and play :o)

Okay last thing about the visit I want to share. We have a game called balloon lagoon (you can get your own at the kbtoys website). My youngest son LOVES the game. Basically its a carnival board game in which you go around doing the different games earning balloons, the first to collect all the balloons wins.

Anyways, my ex said something about “maybe playing with him”. To my kids that is as good as saying you will. Why else would you mention it out of the blue. So he was all excited about playing. He kept runniong around the house saying we were all going to play. Well when I asked him where he got the idea he said “mommy said so”.

She butt right in saying “I said maybe”. At the time she was saying that she was getting ready to walk out the door of coarse, implying she wasn’t going to play. So, I told him I would play with him instead. Well as luck would have it, it started raining before she got the chance to leave (she was walking to see her boyfriend) so she never got to leave.

So I started asking her how to play. I was totally acting like I had never played before. So she said she would sit with us and show me how to play. Well after we got the game set up, I just set her out her playing piece and basically “forced” her to play.

My youngest was so happy. Its not often mommy actually plays with them. Mostly she just takes them out to eat or goes shopping with them. I do my best to keep her in check but its not easy when I am not around full time. So it was definitely nice. I love seeing him that happy. I just wish I could get it through to her that her kids are so much more important then she seems to understand!

Alright so thats really all I have to say about it for now. However I do have a bit of info I just received yesterday. These are the current sales going on this week only at Dreamtime baby.  First until 6/02/08 there is a sale of 10% off on Bumbleride Strollers. Also until the same date is a sale for Crib Bedding Sets all under $99.

These sales are ONLY VALID THROUGH THIS WEBSITE!!! If you visit the site any other way except these links, the sales are not offered. Its a Being A Daddy special :o)

Participants: Tere-Blessing in Life 2.Yen- Me and Mine 3.Aggie - Pink and Brown Diaries. 4. Mich - Random Thoughts 5. Vannie - FunFierceFab 6. Jane - My Charmed Life. 7. Abie – Women Xplore 8. Jody - In This Game of Life 9. Eds – Just Me. 10. something purple 11.vanity kit 12. em’s detour 13. mind bubbles 14. In Demand Opinions 15. Sweet Lullaby 16. MJ’s Hurrah17. Buzzing Around 18. Tasteful Voyage 19. A Mom’s Note 20. moms….. check nyo 21. Just the way it is… 22. Being a Daddy 23. (Your link here)

I’m tagging  Vjczar, Prily, and Shravan Vijayaprasad. Hope you won’t mind sharing!

1. What do you want for your birthday?
- Love? Sex? Intimacy? An OFFLINE friend? …

2. Who will be your next kiss?
- Likely my kids because the last intimate kiss I had was over 2 years ago!

3. When was the last time you went to the mall?
- Uh… let me think… uh… mall… me… las time… I want to say about a year ago but it may have been sooner..

4. Are you wearing socks right now?
- I always wear socks unless I am showering, swimming, or dying of heat!

5. How did you spend your summer?
- My summer is just beginning but… I spend it walking to my kids every two weeks… its over 120 mile walk… What else can I say? My life is boring!

6. Have you been to the cinema in the last 5 days?
- Movies… kind of like the mall only its been longer

7. What was the last thing you had to drink?
- homemade southern style sweet tea from Lipton tea bags :o)

8. What are you wearing right now?
- Uh, a bikeweek t-shirt, an athletics works jacket, a pair of starter sweat pants, socks, shoes… nothing kinky… but if it was I wouldn’t be posting it on this blog :O)

9. What was your last purchase?
- It was either a pack of smokes or a plastic baggy filled with some weird smelling green substance!

10. What was the last food you ate?
- Pork Chops and beef sausage dogs!

11. Who would be the person you would call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn’t sleep?
- Ha like I have that luxury. Usually if I can’t sleep its cause my life starts to get to me, so i just sit and cry. I have no one offline I can call. Sometimes I try to go to chatrooms but they rarely help me feel better.

12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
- Nope

13. Do you have a pet?
- DO human pets count? No just kidding don’t have a pet at the moment!

14. What made you laugh in the last 5 days?
- I’m not sure I have laughed in the last 5 days… but if I have it was certainly my kids

15. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
- In heaven Heaven with God, if it has to be on earth, then with my kids!

16. What is the last thing you purchased online?
- I refuse to shop online. Period!

17. One thing you hate about yourself?
- Just one? My teeth? My smile? My weight (I am 6′11 and 130 lbs)? My ability to be friendless and loveless? So many to chose from!

18. Do you miss anyone?
- I miss my kids, I miss their mother, I miss the love of my life

19. What are your plans for the day?
- The day is over, tomorrow, walking the rest of the 60 miles I have to go to get home

20. Last person you msg’d?
- It was on twitter, so uh… I believe I messaged 53 people at once :o)

21. Ever went to a camp?
- Yes

22. Are you a good student in school?
- Wow I feel old now! No I was never a good student. Not in k - 12 and not when I went to collage and dropped out with a 4.0 (yup truth)

23. What do you know about the (your) future?
- I will die… its likely to be alone. Not much else I can tell you.

24. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
- Nope

25. Where is/are your best friend/s right now?
- My computer is in front of me… or do we mean human friends… cause I am not sure I qualify to answer that :o( *sighs*